Response to angela

The meaning of life part really kills me.(lol i just reread that 3 times lol) I've had since i was 7, but still I cant find a legit emit reason to live other then for my family and friends, so that then wont feel the pain of me dieing..... but all the others just fall into place easy. By the way Angela conversion is like having a being with a person for all of your life and always believing that they tell the truth and would never cheat. Then one day your walking along and you see them making out with another person. At first your like what the hell! Then you start on the, maybe it wasn't him/her or it was actually there cousin and there just really friendly. After this you go, well maybe this was just a one time thing, or you realize that THEY WERE FREAKING LYING ALL THE TIME~!

It hurts really really bad, then theres the depression part, but you move on. Life doesn't need a purpose because just to live, even if its for a second, is wondrous.

Now for a little activity! Go outside after dark, get in your car and drive to the highest point you can where it is the darkest(ojai is perfect but there are better places near you like the top of petit or hell just drive along foothill road away from ventura.) Get out of your car, and look away from the city. That is life. Its wild. Its crazy. It has no meaning and needs none. Because it is different for every person,animal,object,idea, and particle. Its not fair, but its not trying to be mean. Thats just how it is. No intent. No dislike. Its just how it is wild,crazy, peaceful, and awesome down to the last drop. But when the cups empty, sadly, the cups empty and theres no free refills.